Should I be happy or what?

hm.. it's difficult saying something that we never want it to be true ...
something that we will never imagine happened in our lives...

so this is it...

I have a very best friend.. had actually...

FYI, I'm the type of person who feels comfortable only with a few people that I have known them personally.. No need so much friends.. I prefer having some quality friends to quantity friends..
erm... or let's say I'm quite an individual person and I get comfortable with that :)
I love spending time only with people I really love..

So.. It's quite hard for me to find a person who can make me being myself. And there she was..

I love her and always imagine that we will be best friends until we have families and children...
never thought that anything bad happened to our relationships...

but unfortunately.. it was...

I knew we both made mistakes... but maybe mine was bigger..
but I didn't think.. or let's say NEVER EVER though that it would affect our relationships..

I always think that the relationship is worth better than all that sucks happened...
but I knew she didn't think the same...

so there were all the awkward silence happened in our days..
the giggles, the funny and crazy stories weren't there anymore...
All I could hear from her was silence and I felt empty as well...

I think I had lost her, my precious, my best friend...
I just wondered maybe time will heal her anger and forgive me...

but suddenly, after all the silence then I heard a storm.. or maybe you can say that I got hit by that storm.

Well, she will get married next month and decided to move to England with her new boyfriend(soon to be her husband)...

Suddenly,I thought that this will be the sad ending of our relationships..
She will never remember me at all... and maybe will never make any contact with me.
yeah.. all those crazy things kept wandering in my mind...


So, if you ask me that should I be happy or what?

hm... :)
don't be ridiculous.. definitely I would be happy for her :)
What else can make a woman very happy if not by getting married with the person she loves?
finally she can have the right person for her... a man who loves and treats her best.. a person who can make her happy...


So, here I am want to say:

May you happy with your man... and have a happy family out there...
be good and take care... :)

here I always pray for your happiness and will always remember all the good memories with you... I never intend to hurt you, or do anything like you said or thought before...

if you read this someday, here I', waiting for you.. :)

Farewell my dear friend, I love you.... forever